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What an eventful year for me …2011
In Dec 2011, I did my best marathon race.. 4hours 09 mins for 42.125km. Also in Dec 2011, I lost my dad. The most important man in my life. The man who stood by me thru out my 33 years. The man who always there for me and someone that will never say a no to me.
Pa is dignosed with Pancreas Cancer since September 2011 and the whole family hit the lowest point of our life. Then, we stood by him and we positively keep telling Pa that he is just sick and will get well. We transferred Pa out from NUH to Mt Elizabeth and I am sorry to comment NUH is the crapest hospital. I simply do not understand why are they carrying out so much testing on Pa and he is been “poked” till the whole arm is blueblack. Upon seeing that, I get so upset and i get so worked up and tell off the nurses and demand an explanation from the hospital.
I cried so hard over this and I dare not do this in front of my father. During that period, there are so many times we held back our tears in front of our Pa. Since Pa is sick,there is no smile anymore from him. He keeps telling his friends that visited him that he is so grateful that he had 3 daughters that never leave him by his side and always taking turns to take care of him everyday. I believe, that is the least we can do for him. To keep him accompany.
Pa eventually left us on 08 Dec 2011, which happened to be my younger sis birthday. Since that day,i think i am in the depression mode. Nothing interest me anymore. I don’t want to work, I don want to run. I just want to hide in the corner and refuse to see anyone or talk to anyone. I am hurt caz Pa left us without leaving any words. He died peacefully in his sleep. At least, i am grateful that thru out the journey, Pa is never in pain and never once need a morphine injection.
Thou he left us for 6 months, he is still very much living in my heart. Every single min, every single sec, he is with me and rest of us. Still i want to thank Pa for letting Jie, Me, Mei & boy being your kids and you have given the best you can provide for us. You are the best pa. Happy Father Day 2012. We love you…
I am not happy anymore
My dad is back to hospital and he is in quite a bad shape. I am extremely worried about him. I pray hard and i cried hard.
The doc keep sending him for testing. Test this, test that and still no answer. C’mon, he is already so old and the doc has to send him for endoscopy etc.. Is very hard on him.
Whenever, i see pa going thru all these pain, i just feel hurt. very very hurt. Luckily, my internal audit just ended and have to start on the year end audit stuff which i believe i still have time for preparation. Or else, i think i will break down.
Now, we have to wait till wednesday before we can know the result as monday pa had to undergo “don’t know what” procedure to extract the tissue within for checking. Super sianz… Hope this process is not as uncomfortable as endoscopy. He is terified of that.
Now, what i can do is to pray everyday for his well beings. CH says to me, sometimes, i think you are seriously too hard on yourself. Is that true? I wonder?
I am tired and is seriously tired. I simply have no mood for other things. This sunday is the AHM and i wonder if i got the mood and energy to finish the run. Now, i just need a sleep. A good deep sleep …. Hope i can achieve it tonight.
冰之部落格。 