“Drained today”

I think i am totally “drained out” today. I had a super tired long day.

Woke up at 4 plus in the morning and head out for a run with the gang. They are hitting distance of 24km, 30km and 35km. I opt for 30km then without knowing if i can survive.

The run started out well and i think i am a bit too fast at the beginning and the returning leg and i am feeling the heat and the pain and cramp seem to visit me at one go.

I am having my menses, 3rd day and as i am running back. I got this superb weird feeling. Think my … had moved despite having wings. I am shit.. what to do huh? There is no toilet around the area and definitely i wouldn’t have carry extra while running right.

Then in order to avoid accident and embrassement from happening, i decided to walk instead so that is within my control. Luckily along the way, i saw leet Sing and i could not tell him my issue as he is a guy and i think he is down already so i have him to accompany me throughout back to cc. Kind of blessing to have someone to accompany.

Along the way, he told me about speed dating and he said that gals over there are asking typically questions like: What do you work as? Do you own a car? what countries have you been? Do you have a house? etc ?? I told him i am not a bit surprised as that’s life. Like it or not. I am sorry to say that but i just feel that gals are materialistic.

He then told me that now he do not have the intention to get married as he felt that getting married is more like a biz transaction. Ai yo, why are you so negative about marriage? I say once you have met the correct gal then i think you will jump into marriage immediately. LOL

Once back to cc, the guys are almost back except a few who are doing longer distance.or rather slower than me…haha. Think i hot 3hr for my first 30km training. No good at all. Hope to do a better timing the next round.

Tired and i need to sleep now. Eyes are already half closed.

 

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Singapore Bay Run 2011

Today, i woke up at 3am and prepared for my AHM. As usual, i can’t sleep well the night before. I keep waking up to see the time as i am worried that i might overslept.

I picked Shawn at about 345am and, imagine, the cabs are all fully taken up. Still got people ard my quiet stretch to snatch cab from me at this wee hour…*basket*. We reached esplande at about 430am and saw WY n Robin along the way and we are heading to No signboard seafood to meet up with the rest of the PRs… Ping, Gene and KP are supposed to meet me there.

But Gene and KP are late so i asked them to head down to the starting line and we try to meet there. Surprisingly, we still able to meet up in that mass of people.

I started well, in fact, i tried to slow but i realised Ping pace is slightly faster. So i try to slow him down. The route is a complete new route to us. I like this route as compared to previous years. When i reached 10km, the timing is about 57mins which i think is too fast and i really do not want to burnt out at the later stage.

When i hit ard, 14km, CH overtakes me and he told me that since i am left with so much energy, i should start to “chiong”. At the point, i am hesitating whether to do it or not. I am so scared that i will just die at thye last 2-3km.

Anyway, i picked up my pace and try to do slightly faster and is amaze to know that, in fact i am ok and i still can push. Think this is what they called positive split…. Hahaha. Think is at that point of time, Ping break away from me and i am alone again,that point, i am thinking of my father. He is always in my mind while running. I told him, i will do a good run this year and i did it…Pa.

I overtook CH at Fort Canning and he overtook me at near 20km when he told me, is 20km already. I am trying hard to catch him and at the last bend, i overtook him slightly and the run ended at 1hr 52mins. Is my best run for the year so far and i am proud of myself. Ping came in about 3mins later. Is he PB so far.

Well done to everyone.

Post run is always filled with photo takings, and PRs are making lots of noises then. As MK always say, we are famous…Famous his head lar…. LOL…

 

I am not happy anymore

My dad is back to hospital and he is in quite a bad shape. I am extremely worried  about him. I  pray hard and i cried hard.

The doc keep sending him for testing. Test this, test that and still no answer. C’mon, he is already so old and the doc has to send him for endoscopy etc.. Is very hard on him.

Whenever, i see pa going thru all these pain, i just feel hurt. very very hurt. Luckily, my internal audit just ended and have to start on the year end audit stuff which i believe i still have time for preparation. Or else, i think i will break down.

Now, we have to wait till wednesday before we can know the result as monday pa had to undergo “don’t know what” procedure to extract the tissue within for checking. Super sianz… Hope this process is not as uncomfortable as endoscopy. He is terified of that.

Now, what i can do is to pray everyday for his well beings. CH says to me, sometimes, i think you are seriously too hard on yourself. Is that true? I wonder?

I am tired and is seriously tired. I simply have no mood for other things. This sunday is the AHM and i wonder if i got the mood and energy to finish the run. Now, i just need a sleep. A good deep sleep …. Hope i can achieve it tonight.

 

 

Doc visit

I wonder at times… that we are earning money to see doc..Sianz…

Each visit will cost meup to S100.00 per visit. Hiaz ….

Just need to grumble abit before i go and visit the doc soon and pay him money …

 

 

 

Super long long time yet to post anything….

Just want to test if my blog still usable….

Glad that still intact so that i can start to blog again..

Back soon

 

Aviva 70.30 is just two days away

My supposed feeling should be excited at this moment but no more. I thought i be feeling sore and bad about not racing but surprisingly i am not. I have been eating well and sleeping well. LOL…

I am not giving up on these sports just because of this minor incident. I be back to my usual routine soon. In fact, i have already resumed. I did my first “LSD” 9.3K @ 47.30mins. Think to hit 48mins for 10K seem impossible for me at this moment but i will worked toward it.

Swimming tonight and i better not be lazy. I have to swim because tomorrow i be going to the hairdresser and after that, normally i will not be swimming. Hope to do some biking on sun too…

 

I am happier now…:)

Today, i managed to do something that i adore. That is so stress – free. I feel happier today.

Thinking back, in fact is a blessing in disguise. Maybe my body is really too tired. After couple day of resting, i feel good. My appetite is coming back. For the past two days, i can’t eat at all. I am so bothered by it. I keep thinking about it over and over, again and again. I keep asking why i am the one. Why am i so suay?? I keep scolding myself..

Like what coach say- we all must learn from mistake. Each mistake had a reason. The most important thing is to learn to fall and also learn to pick yourself up.

Coach already says Desaru is waiting for you. Lots of races is waiting. Is only you want to go or not. I know what he wants… He only aiming for the seafood after the race. LOL. He says this is the most stressless race. Just complete. No cut off time. 11 hours also like tt..hahaha..So funny. If one person can take 11 hours to complete a 70.30, then he must be a record breaker.. Hahaha.  See how ba.. See if my gut is back or not. If yes, i might do it.. We don’t know what will happen tomorrow, right

 

I called it quit

After weeks of hesitating, i decided that since the wounds are not getting any better. I shall get it quit.

After the fall. i can’t sleep well cause everytime when i try to sleep at the injured position, i just wake up again. How to get good sleep? Anyway, i have cried enough and maybe is fated that things turn out in this way.

I have to pick myself up and move on. I keep consoling myself with all the “nevermind la, is just a race etc…” But is the months of effort that i have put it in is simply too much.

Hopefully, i can get this over and shall have a good night sleep. *Praying Hard.*

 

Anyhow Thoughts

Yesterday, i did my swim again. Once again, i managed to do 35.05mins for 1.5km and 48.00mins for 2.0km. Why so inconsistent??

Doing a half ironman is never an easy thing. Not only you will be physically affected but will mentally as well. This feeling, you can never tell it to people who do not do sports. When you try telling them, their reply will be no one asks you to do it, right. You have yourself to ask for it… Can’t be more encouraging meh.

Thou my beloved mentor SC had again n again assure me that i be fine but i am just scared. He asked me to get rid of that fear thoughts. Nothing to be afraid of, he says. SC had been an ironman for countless times and he did double of what i be doing. Today, he told me that the oldest participant @ Langkawi Ironman is 73 years old. Despite the age, the old man did 14 hours over… Amazing. He must be damn strong.

I must brace myself to face it. Anyway, is my choice to enter this race and i can’t regret but to look forward. Many times, i feel like breaking down and let go but i think of mummy Shawn. She is really my idol. Thou she might not have the speed but her endurance is greatly unbeatable. Salute her.

So nothing to scare, nothing to fear, ok..just go ahead with it…

During weekends, i have to wake up as easy as 3 plus in the morning. Reason for doing so is to avoid heavy traffic. See how consider am i … LOL